Friday, December 30, 2011
♥ What She Says !
Hi, I really need someone to talk to but the person whom I wanna talk to most, isn't very happy about me right now. I don't know why I'm like this. I hope he doesn't see this. Well, I'm not a very good sweet-talker, not a person who expresses my love well or right? Just nothing at all. I don't know why he loves me too. Haa, I've got too much to say, so much that I don't know where I should even start from.
Right now, I'm here typing on my keyboard when I'm suppose to have already left the office and on the way to his house. But I'm really sad, I'm really feeling very very very sad. It's not his fault just now, but yesterday, today, he kept kicking up a quarrel with me which I'm really really mad at. Just replying him 5mins slower, he would have called and scolded a hell outta me. Makes me feel like a dog sometimes.
And he would always say my exs are all better than him when in fact, he's the one who really makes me laugh all the time. Yes, I've told him how amazing he makes me feel but you know the angers, only allowing the worse of me into him. You know, he's really good with me. I don't know how he managed to make me smile all the time just by looking at him. And it totally works too even when I'm mad, just by seeing him pout his mouth, and making a lot of noise to get my attention.
But I'm really furious how he always smokes when he's angry, or stress or blah blah blah. They're all excuses. And how he always push the blame to others when it's like his very own wrong. How he cries first when I should be the one crying, how he vents his anger by punching the wall and hurting himself, how he checks my phone each time we meet, how he's so paranoid to boys talking to me, how he nags all the time, how he tries to act smart and speak like a Caucasian, how he took my time every week without leaving me any for my family and myself. How he makes me feel suffocated and he don't even know that.
And what I hate most is that, I could actually still love him despite him being like that and no mortal could really tolerate someone so fucked up! I wish he could just coax me all the time. It really hurts so much inside.
I don't know if I should go find him now, I really don't want to but I just love him so much....
☆ { 7:27 PM } ♥
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
♥ What She Says !
Late night out !
Met out with Jiji and Xuanxuan last Saturday to shop for Tingting's birthday present. Halfway through the shopping, we saw something that really delights us much hence we bought it down and intended to give it to Tingting as a present.
After that, Rabbit wanted to meet me but because he's such a lazy person, he made Xuanxuan and I wait like mad but know what? We already knew he wont turn up. Such an ass! So had Macdonalds with Xuanxuan and after that we went to slack. Sorry, I couldn't upload the photos. D:
Anyway, I really loved talking to Meixuan. Common experience, made the conversations easier to understand for the both of us. (:
Stayed out till around 2am in the morning and cabbed home with this wonderful friend of mine! :D
☆ { 6:37 PM } ♥
Monday, March 29, 2010
♥ What She Says !
Night at work .Back to work like finally again yesterday. Reached home at about 2.45am because I worked overtime. Nothing interesting but I could say that the whole night was really a super slack one. Sent a message over to Darling but we seem to have run out of topics recently. ):
Zoo on Thursday, maybe or maybe not. It all depends on me now. HEHEHEH! :D Perhaps I'll just go over to Darling's house later on to see if he's still alright. Heard that he's sick. D: poor boy~
ImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyouImissyou!
Goodnight smelly pig. (:
I'll see you soon.
☆ { 4:11 AM } ♥
Thursday, March 04, 2010
♥ What She Says !
Studies and you .It's only a few more days to exams, a crucial stage each semester whereby my results will determine where I'd go after ITE. ): I'm studying for my Service Excellence now and at the same time, waiting for my phone to vibrate.
How I wish I could be like you, simply forgetting me each day and carry on with whatever you do. Have I not told you that I want you to call me, I want you to text me? Each time a message shakes my phone, I'd pray it was you but...
Three messages today. Buck up, Baby.
Goodbye.
☆ { 11:51 PM } ♥
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
♥ What She Says !
Game's over soon !Greatest thanks to school, to teachers, to projects and finally to tests and exams! I've been neglecting my friends and boyfriend. Now, I demand all these to end! D: Like for fucking two more weeks, all the pain in the ass are going to "POOF"! Weeeeee~ H4F wait for me! We sure have a lot to catch up on. I'm so sorry! ):
To: H4F
Really sorry for rejecting the outings everytime. We're going to meet out tomorrow and so, I hope we'll have fun! :D Chalet soon alright? (: Haas, looking forward to that!
To: Darling
Sorry for throwing my temper at you at times. Sorry for yesterday. And I'll see you soon too, on Friday. (: Since you have to work, I'll do my project first then. D: RAWR!
To: 5A1
I hope I'll be able to make it for the next class gathering if really nothing clashes. Miss you guys too! Sorry. ><
To: WonderGirls
We've been through all these shit together! I LOVE YOU! :D Especially skipping lessons and got the first warning letter. I know there's nothing to be proud of but wooo~ memorable!
☆ { 10:17 PM } ♥
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
♥ What She Says !
Shouts : STOP!Hello people! ): Ain't good recently. Projects and tests coming up. I thought I'm on the verge of breaking down but recalling what my projects are, there's only ETP to go before less-stressing ones come. I really hope ETP presentation will be over soon. I think ETP sucks to the core, really! ):
How I wish that school stops forever!!
And my fat Baby will be heading to Vietnam tomorrow in the afternoon. I'll miss him so much. Be sure to come back safely because that would mean so much more than all the presents you are going to bring back for me. I love you.
☆ { 9:55 PM } ♥
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
♥ What She Says !
Dad gone crazy!Like seriously! What's wrong with my Dad?! He was like fucking pissed off today? I don't know what huge problems he had faced out there on the streets or whatsoever but really Dad,
VENTING OUT YOUR ANGER ON BRO AND I DOESN'T HELP TO SOLVE ANYTHING!
Please la hor, you've been so unreasonable since once upon a time! I never know why you are doing things that make all of us so fucked up. What do you want us to do at home? We cannot even stay out or stay up late. All you want us to do is SLEEP AT NIGHT! I dare you to try me, I'll just leave home and don't ever come calling me and ask me home because you know why?
THAT WILL ONLY HAPPEN WHEN YOU ARE NOT AROUND!
And if only I have someone to tell, just someone who really understand, I'll be more than happy to do so. Too bad, the one that really does is still nowhere to be found. ):
☆ { 12:28 AM } ♥
